I had a way then losing it all on my own
I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown
And I'm not sleeping now,
the dark is too hard to beat
And I'm not keeping now,
the strength I need to push me
You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone
'Cause they're calling, calling, calling me…
Added by Angela on March 27, 2013 at 11:30am — No Comments
The Bathroom Window
Original Written By Beatles
I had come in through the bathroom window
Protected by a silver spoon
But now I sucks my thumb and wanders
By the banks of my own lagoon
Why didn't anybody tell me?
Why didn't anybody see?
I am on the phone to Monday,
I am on the phone to you
I had said I'd always been a dancer
I worked at 15 clubs night and day
Added by Angela on March 24, 2013 at 11:05pm — No Comments
My Sincere Hope Is That You Are Happy!!!
At Least Have Smile On Your Face When You Leave Here
So You Can Become Happy!!
"Bubbly" By Colbie Caillat
I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglees in a silly place
It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile…
Added by Angela on March 21, 2013 at 10:53pm — No Comments
Oh well maybe not like doing updates but i can say few things. I am working and energy has gone very low. Its been what i want to do to be here more, just have not been able to.
Then when i did return i saw my page photo gone. It deflated me and felt energy drain from me.I wanted to fix just has taken time to want to try.
Then Holidays came and i miss home so bad. That took a lot out me. I was try get into Thanksgiving day. I like…Continue
Added by Angela on February 28, 2013 at 7:26pm — No Comments
Well, I here tonight but not very long tho.
So i wont do update just entry like a short post or diary entry.
Quick fast short and to the point.
Well first i want apologize to everyone for post i got duped into.
My fault, and reason its my fault i posted blindly that article. I was lead to believe was real.,when i had the time actually to read it.Wow, I found its was a fiction based story. Was based on a person who had survived a rape but was only a fiction story.…
Added by Angela on November 16, 2012 at 6:15pm — No Comments
I am so sorry has taken me so long return to you.But as everyone knows i been going back and forth to Texas.I have slowly since January setting up residence there. I have brought myself and one Aunties here who also needs help.She brings papers on my Mom and Dad and herself. We are now both dual citizenship. Each of the last times I was here bring some more things to apartment here. When I have go back suspended all utilities so not charge but so i can still keep service…Continue
Well, First I want everyone to know I am okay.
But, still I do update. One I wish I did not have say here. I will start at beginning okay.
This month April never a good month for me. It was 2010 April end of it to start of May I had a nightmare experience with doctors. The one where i was dealing with a nurse who run me down hall, me hold on for dear life, bangs into door knocks over vase breaks it and then turn bed i am on slams it into operating room table…Continue
Added by Angela on February 14, 2012 at 9:30am — No Comments
I am back home an have more energy as I have told everyone . I am given that go ahead to go back work limitedly. I work as Rn in newborns maternity ward. Where I always have, since i got illl. But, I never want to work any where else any more. I just love newborns so soft cute cuddly.I am 11-7, 3 days on 4 days off like i have told you.I am not recovered totally but i am given go ahead try limitly be noraml. I have room where i can rest on breaks when i need to. I am weak still a…Continue
Added by Angela on February 13, 2012 at 12:30pm — No Comments
Thank you to all my online family here for praying for me.All prayers alive an well.Guess what so am i too thanks to you all.
I am back home in my beloved Netherlands. So cold here -1 to -3.Texas cold to on an off. Interesting place Texas one day cold maybe two three then four five warm .I never knew how dress, but was able lay on beach in so pretty Places. I love beaches as everyone knows.
Any way i am recovered from stints that were put in. But, also I…Continue
First this is me being me not up-date,just trying be here.
Back today hoping to post my inner feelings...
I just hate and odd like at same time when i get waken with urge to write.
Say odd because most the time my best thoughts occur when i still am in bed. [giggles]
Sometime by time i get here i am left with 50% of what i originally wanted to say...
So here goes lets hope this time i do better ok.
Why i came is i had a very bad yet…Continue
I am back will be on an off i suspect way i feel more off than on. I was not given operation I needed. But, was in hospital, for more follow up on stints that were in over the years. Last year April and May 2011 i had same things done.That time was one to go bad. This time found two more of them had gone bad an placed same as before new ones above an below those bad ones a more modern ones. These have medication in them same as last time so they will do better job. Problem its more…Continue
I was asked if I am still in Texas, well yes be here for a while so it seems.
I love this site,always will it has been my home online.
I dont know how much longer I have for life. If something not done soon who knows.
This takes so much out me, my condition. Its made so worse with diabetes.
I have come here see if advanced surgeries here in your country can help me.
We choose Texas because its advnced standing in University Hospitals here.
My hope is…
Short UP DATE ...
Cant seem sleep at all.
Iam here very late for me, thou clock says 11.03PM your countrys time, mine is 6.02AM breakfast time for me, sse why I cant sleep.
Time all upside down, i am on different internal clock just tired all time much more.
This not good because i am run down already.
Doctors want drug me make me sleep here.
I know i need sleep but if wanting me sleep i would rather take cherries,
Once I was what he wanted.
His adopted child.
I thought he cared for me,
when he came for me after school.
I was a teenager you see.
Shhhhhhhhing me....you always said
better not talk this.
Oh how I hated summers.
Home more you using me night and day.
To see me lying there on the cold floor
or in my bed always.....
a sheen of sweat on my naked body,
I been on off here again, due to low energy levels.I can not help it. Beyond my ability to
to control this.It's medications I take and all have side effects. It's those side effects,
cause me a lot problems. Example, medications have warnings say side effects. But, never
say can cause death, like that see. Two I take long time can. I been tested over and over
now bladder, liver kidney's all may show problems they say. So, far I am O.K.Just…
Added by Angela on December 8, 2011 at 8:00pm — No Comments
Added by Angela on October 15, 2011 at 11:04pm — No Comments
I Know we are all members here, and enjoy being a members right?
If not we would not be here. But, I come realize the hidden meaning of being a member.
The is a Power to being here, that maybe none you have realized. Angie_Iv hit on it once
in a expose' she was answer once. She was talking about and explaining along with me about differences trans an gender sisters go threw differently from main stream lesbians, and she had…
Added by Angela on August 12, 2011 at 1:46pm — No Comments