Well, thou no-on knew it this past friday 7th and weekend was hell for me.
I was in hospital all weekend long again.
I never really mind up-dating everyone ...but this time was more painful to say it.
Puddygirl told me I need to so I am.
I just want be normal again.
I try so hard to believe in my doctors. But, I find I can't really.
I have terrible recent story to tell you.
Pleease everyone forgive me wait so long tell you .
Friday jan, 7th
I had what feel like to me a heart attack again, and infraction occurr any way not matters what we call it. I was taken by Ambulance to clinic where I go for meds, to walk in ER there.I was then seen by a doctor there who say need go hospital.
hospital where I go was not able see me. So I was diverted to another one.
This was one I had been to before years ago, but no longer able go there.
THis time i begin to worry, if I cant go here they wont really help me.
I was correct. I was given treatment but never did they try solve what happened.
My body even late Saturday try show something was wrong still ,,,and still they wont try solved it.
They dont believe I had heart attack.Say to me blood markers dont show u ever had attack.I told them same thing happened in 1999 an again in 2002. Now, again and still my body dont show anything. So I say what I had read in magazine. It said women dont show a sign of heart attack alot of the time.They say to me dont believe all you read. I say ok tell me then what had happened.
THey cant show me or tell me what happened. Just reading does not show us anything happened to you.We really dont know why you are here. Stop waste our time.Then a former doctor I gad there in 2002 come in when i asked him what he thinks, He say admit her now.We will do , more testing.
Friday Late Night
took from 1.30 till 9 pm to get into a bed on 5th floor. Yeah took that long get me a bed.
I was given treatment this was a patch place on my left breast with very high dose of nitro, higher than pills i have for it. I was then monitored by heart monitor, bloodpressure , heart rate, and sugar levels constantly.
I suffered bad headaches from higher nitro.
I repetedly asked for either pain meds for pain i was having in my heart and for headachesor tylenol. Never got either pain meds for my heart or even tylenol for heardaches. Was told it would go away.
I had difficult time with pain... still not response from staff.I complained every chance i can.My wife visit me an even they wont listen to her too.I think maybe reaction to us be married an maybe that we are gay, and its not my hospital. Must be reason for this reaction. My doctors dont practice in there. I was being hurt by not have my own hospital doing treatment. I was try to relax an maybe try have my body healing itself.
Then see monitor it showed my heart refibulating i feel also pain in my lefy breast.
Then hear running comming to my room. Say try see ekg monitor they see it...
say I am ok.
But, the screen monitor my heart beat going wildly out of range. My blood pressure had dropped was why they run to me,Showed I flat lined. I was just in pain not dead.
Then my blood sugar was so high...but I was on their controled diet should not been high.
My entire body react to something.
I knew was again very faint heart attack all things pointed to it.Pain I had in my left breast from my heart and then run to my left arm an up to my head an jaw. I know it was.
I was told being released. I asked why? You know something happened to me. I try fight it.
I was very mad an angry.But, I am in there sick an cant fight it really. I know I cant. I called my own doctor she say just let released you and come see me when you can.
First call case manager to set appoinmet to me. So I have .
I still have pain. I dont know when this be over.
I take constantly my nitro pills.
I learn that the large clog i have does allow blood threw it at times. An its not totally blocked like i had been told before.
I am so worried and fearful.
Then i was told i be relaesed time was 9.30 pm at night on Sunday ...
I never ever have see that ever before.
I told them I cant go so late. No one able to fetch me.
My wife is at my aunts house and she not able drive at night.
THe only good thing they did was pay my way home on taxii.
I arrived home 11pm at Sunday night.
I only show here why i distrust doctors.
Also I have more reason but this is recent one.
For me my dcotors have be female. Yes, I have had alot problemes from male doctors, think you can guess all reasons why.
I had my wife pray with me over all this.
I am so afraid.
Well yes I am very scared.Yes, and its government run here It was ambulance workers who messed me up. But, they had to take me to ER since I was heart patient.And yes has wait list.
Its why i wait so long .You now see my problem. I was worried how i can get across what go on here. Canada work same way too. You are correct.Sometimes system here works very well and at other times not. Those ambulance workers taking me to wrong place only were doing their jobs.Were told cant bring me to my hospital and so were diverted to the other one.
Whewwww was big mess.
I am home now hope i will be ok. But you can bet i will insist
on be taken to my hospital.Never to other one here ever again. I will have my wife drive me.
No more ambuances unless they really needed.
I guess I should not blame doctors here they only doing there job. I was at wrong place.
Now I am home and few days away from last weekend i can see clearly. All there job is to stablize me and get me back to my own doctors.Thats what they did. But, they dont try solve my trouble. And I guess since were not my doctors its not their job to that. But, I could have died.Then, I wonder then what?
Would they care at all. I dont think so.Makes me so angry.
So I have contact my case manger and filed a complaint .She is also trying to get me new appointment one ealier than March. Lets hope she can.
I have a normal appointment in March to my primary doctor and also to my herart specialist.
It 's my primary I am trying to see sooner.I need to be followed up after hospital and my normal scribs needs refilling. Remeber I have said before Clinic is refilling them, but wants primary rewrite new scrib.
I find I may have wait till July to see a heart doctor.Here we have long wait list at times.
Same as Canada.
In my caase reason is becasue I am loosing my heart doctor and replacement wont be here till July. So it's imperative for me see my heart Doctor in March or sooner if i can. After March I can see a doctor assitant, until July for my heart meds.
Well there you have recent history and this was painful for me this time just a terrible experience. I was only
stablized so problems not solved and wont be resolved i guess by doctors until sometime after July.
I was given a new med at my release to help me and it seems it is helping.
Now if I am lucky i will be able see both my doctors either before March or in March, otherwise it's wait till July.This why I am so scared.
I just have no more words be able say.