Well, First I want everyone to know I am okay.
But, still I do update. One I wish I did not have say here. I will start at beginning okay.
This month April never a good month for me. It was 2010 April end of it to start of May I had a nightmare experience with doctors. The one where i was dealing with a nurse who run me down hall, me hold on for dear life, bangs into door knocks over vase breaks it and then turn bed i am on slams it into operating room table and ruins the control panel. All who know me will remember this. It's funny now, but was not funny that time.
Well i feel you all thinking why bring this up now?
Well,this month April i say this it because April never kind month for us my wife and me. She has trouble this time. It was three weeks ago, and i am sorry i was not here more. But, i was so involved with this. Its my wife i was worried, i don't at that time know how share it. I was just heavy hearted over into prayers. It's all i know how to do. Well, she was found to need and operation, its her stomach. Was her gaul badder. She had stones inside it. So we were told would remove the stones. She was having so much pain. so day came two weeks ago, i drive her to patient LOADING RE LOAD ZONE,let her out, and then go park and had to walk entire way. I was done in after that. Remember my own health not so good. I am doing better but i am not totally out woods yet either.So we go up she checks in. And i wait........... was all day wait. When we arrived was 7 am she was not able go in because lady ahead of us went into stress and almost died. But, they were able save her. But this throw time table off three hours, she was not able go in for her operation until 3 in afternoon. Now, i am sit in there all day long. I don't leave i refuse to go. Hey, this my wife, i love her dearly. I need to stay by her side. She support me threw all i ever go threw, I told them i never go away from her. Yeah they try run me off.I never hear of any thing like that before.Any way i am there till 9 pm. My back very sore, I am very tired. I would like to have go but my love for my wife won't allow it. I don't leave until i am told she okay and i see her with my own eyes give her kiss and hold, and hug her see room she is to go in with her in her help in her own bed. Then told i her i have to go visit hours over. Then and only then do i go home. I cant sleep i am so worried. but i was called she will be released tomorrow 9am. Well, i go next morning to get her, and all went okay she recovering very well now at home.
So why are you telling us all this.
Because i have last Monday 23rd of April a new set testing i had i to go threw. Monday 23 my new Doctor wanted me be tested, it was a series of testing the major tests i had have all in one day. Because i don't want go more days spread out over time and cost me more money. First was to be Stress test next MRI followed by Heart scan sorta like a Son-a-gram but on my heart. All these were already set way before my wife's operation. Well, all stress i had from wife recent operation i was in no condition to be tested.I already have enough stress, my thinking was stress already and now they going add more stress to me, its path to disaster. So i call try reset them all. Oh no you can't reset it to another time. You need doing it all way its set.
So on Monday i go there. And OMG i wish i had not go. I get there go threw start was given BP it was 95/78 not strong enough at all. I say listen my BP not good enough.Oh its okay just relax you not relaxed. Your nervous, i think yeah i am. Then hook me up and first stage, is small machine takes before photos of my heart. Then after set me up on treadmill. I start and immediately start have trouble. So take me down, tell me will proceed with medications. Medications now will duplicate the treadmill. Restart, and i immediately go again into trouble. BP now 65/25 i am into stress death mode. There but bearly , there. Emergency was called.I am rushed to hospital. In transit I am revived, new BP now reads 112/95 very strong now.well enough to talk react and say if i okay.I say i am. Told me going to ER where i am to be prep for operation to see if heart okay, and replace or put stints in. I think OMG April, all over again and more stints i was hope i never be here again like this. But, this my life Hospital is my way life now.My mind go think all before the times i been here this way. My fear now i have tell my wife. She recover herself from her own operation. I Go into fear Mode. this first time i am alone doing this in so long. I really appreciate her so much more, all times she been with me. I get so scared i don't want die. I start cry, then i start pray ... prayer i always pray. I had pray it before start of testing. God please be with me let it be yours hands on me doctors yes doing it, but your hands. I say over and over. Then i step back let go, let God.As soon i am in hospital i was taken to the ER while OR gets ready for me,then taken to OR all people same as before i know some of them and one who run me down hall last time has grow into wonderful nurse now.
What i never know until later is my Doctor who ordered the stress testing was very active in all this. She order all them how they are to work. She had review my pre stress photos. She thinks sees things in them. She wants them clearified and wants answers. So all went well. Did all she had wanted. Still she not satisfied. Now, i am still not told her involvement. Nor was i told my wife was on phone entire time talk to my doctor. She give all the okays to do all work on me. She faxed all paper work back for me, mean while i taken to my room where i start recover, it there i find what's been going on. My doctor been order all and my wife's approve it all. I immediately pray and thank God.i am recover well. Wake Tuesday morning i am told my doctor still not satisfied. She wants see more clearly what says she sees it something inside one main arteries. She wont allow me go home until she sees it. She says reason she wants know is because i can drop dead at any time if what she is correct. So here I go again, back down to open me up again. But, I don't know any that at that time. I am told she wants a heart scan which is the Son-a-gram. So there i go down there. Wait there and am preped. Then all hell break loose docotrs all in a huddle. Flash back i have seen all this before. But, this time they seem have answers, and i now know its my doctor leading it all. Odd thou she never ever was even there. But, she know all they are doing.
I had pray long before i got her as my doctor to have good a doctor one who fights for me, cares for me, and never leaves me alone.I tell God and same time told Puddy Girl all i am talking about. I know i never find her a good doctor,. Was odd all suddenly Jan Feb this year i got call from prime doctor. Has referal for me see new heart doctor. But, I wont be able see her until end March early April. So you see she rather new for me. But, what breathe of fresh air for me. I never in all my life have had doctor like her ever before.
So back again to what goes on.
Those doctors come to me, say we cant do the Son-a-gram on your heart she don't that one.. Your doctor saying no. So ask me What do want to do? Why ask me if my doctor say no, she speaks for me. My wife already agreed i am not interfer so stop you follow what she says. I trust my doctor. So there i go back down operating room all see me again,Saying Here comes Vandekoor doing re-do. We all laughing. I wait not long and this time i go into a sleep not from them, i was not to be sleeping, it always done awake.
I don't know why i sleep.
But, i really do, its like story of one set foot prints. Person see, ask God, God says was me i carry you.So i was carried. I could not go threw another operation alone.I know i was to weak. When i wake i asked them did know i was asleep.What they say oh no you were talking to us entire time.See i was carried. You did just fine dear. We cant ask for better patient.
Any way I taken back up to recovery, then back to my former room.I was just home late last night and now this my second day home.
Where i been in loving arms of my wife.