Once I was what he wanted.
His adopted child.
I thought he cared for me,
when he came for me after school.
I was a teenager you see.
Shhhhhhhhing me....you always said
better not talk this.
Oh how I hated summers.
Home more you using me night and day.
To see me lying there on the cold floor
or in my bed always.....
a sheen of sweat on my naked body,
thighs glistening with moisture
you staring at me, with lust in your eyes
all the time...
You had just had your way with me already.
shhhhhhing... me again with your insults.
I can see your eyes still staring back at me.
I see you thou with only a teens mind.
Seeing you looking that way hard and stif still
Standing there naked in front of me still dripping...
never threw always wanting me more,
waiting there for me wanting more of me...
I would always think you was satisfied,
yet you would always want more of me..
Just you seeing me, just to look or glance my way,
I would shiver,shudder down my spine nerves run cold from
your look. I was still shaking from waves of forced orgasm
spasms still over taking me.
I was still full of fear, since I had never cum like this before.
How, can this be...
its hate not love,cant be love its forced its rape...
his touch, rough smelly man,beer on his breathe,
each other time I able hold back cant,and....
I just removed me.. Not there at all,
think other places happy times, removed me to beach,
removed me from my body also....
did all that each time,
this time different, felt shame,
I had cum I hated me for that.
In the hours just ahead, before all this I had fought you.
I loathed your every touch, spit at your face,
watched you laugh at me.
all went wrong,was attacked,
I screamed and not able move and
can't remove myself can't protect me,
my inner child.
I was strong, but you were stronger.
Your rage made me yield, obey
and you used me for you own pleasure.
I lost all innocence....what little still had.
As long as I made you happy gave
you pleasure and you could make me scream,
full of hurting pain between my legs.
I was so young, so small your unwilling sex slave,
from that day on.
I would beg you stop, still you made me scream and,
bleeding down there, torn an broken you enjoy me
lt had been all my own fault.
I told you of my secret thoughts, deepest secrets,
It was before when,
I thought I could trust you like a father.
You hated that I told you I loved girls,
my fault was my own honesty to have told you.
I'll force you... to like.. no,even love.. men again.
I hate them all. But, please not confusion here.
I born to love women have known this all my life.
I am reminiscing of the breaking free process,
and a chill runs down my spine,
as I loath you even your memory.
I ran once I hit 18, never looked backed.
after a life-time and a wife how who had died,
and with my new wife now, my memories of you are
dispelled erased of all the came before.
here making love to my wife
I moisten even more,
but I never hold it back now
Only she can satisfy me.
I am secure in her arms.
women cant ever love more.
My body responds with your loving touch.
safe now, together as one spirit, two as one
shine brightly but one light.
your horrible memory just fades.